Now I lay me down to sleep…
Which nightmare shall I see?
The running in slow motion one?
The falling one?
Will I finally find out who’s been chasing me all of my life?
Will she love me again, the woman I have never met or clearly seen?
Will I ever fly again?
Are the monsters still waiting for me to close my eyes?
Sometimes I think they follow me back to the Awake place…
Will my super strength stay with me?
Why are silent screams in my dreams loud enough to wake me?
How can I cry in a dream?
Why does the sense of loss follow me back into the light…?
I’ve been torn from lovers that I have never seen, but whom I love with the intensity only a dream can create.
Will I ever love that way…?
Can I dream love in reality?
I don’t want to dream, I hope too.
I want to sleep.
I don’t know what will happen when I close my eyes…
I hardly know when they are open…
I hate screaming in the dark.
I hate crying in my sleep.
I hate never being able to tell “her” goodbye.
Maybe I’ll get to fly again one day.
If I should die before I wake, will I know it….
Or will I dream of heaven and never know…?
Will it be a falling or flying dream?
You never know, with dreams.
…. and pray the Lord, my soul to take.
Because there are other things in the dark that want me, too…