You know better than I do how ignorant I can get and what a jerk I can be.
I know that we have been having a tough time lately and I feel like it’s getting out of control.
So, that being said, I want to tell you what I feel in my heart.
I love you.
I won’t lie when I say that I don’t know where these feelings come from, but…I don’t understand a lot of things…
I am just a man….a simple gardener.
What brought this up, you may wonder….
I saw you while I was sleeping.
God said it was a dream.
I think I’ll like dreams….
You were my first dream, how cool is that?
Then, I had a dream about you going away.
God said that was called a nightmare, a bad dream.
I had one dream, and you came true. That was a good dream.
If I dream anymore, will they all come true?
But, if I have a nightmare…..I hope it doesn’t.
I am living my dream when you are in my arms.
I like dreams better when my eyes are open.
I think nightmares can come in the daytime.
Crap, I’m getting off the subject.
Sorry, just thinking out loud, kinda.
You seem like you’re distracted and moody lately, and it is tearing my soul apart!
You act like you don’t want to talk about stuff and that terrifies me!
Who else can you talk to if it isn’t me….?
Him!? The guy under the tree?
If you don’t tell me what’s wrong how can I fix it?
I know I got upset the other day when I saw you talking to that guy.
But you were right, as usual, that I should trust you more.
So I make a promise that I will trust you from now on.
Whatever you think is best, I will do.
I’m sorry that I’m such a ‘man’ sometimes….like you say.
I can feel it in my bones….
I can’t seem to breathe when you are close to me and I can’t seem to breathe when you are not.
I only know that I need you to help me live…..
You are my air.
I’m so pathetic! LMAO!
I have decided that I will go with you to the tree.
I will eat of the fruit as you ask.
Why have I changed my mind?
I’m not as hard-headed as you say.
It’s because I love you Eve, and I want to know everything there is to find out about you, good OR bad.
Do you think God will really kill us?
I don’t think he will, he seems like a nice guy.
I don’t know what to do; I mean I know what I want to do but, will it work out?
Do you want me to know about you and your day dreams…Do you care?
It scares me how much I love you….
It’s like we are destined to be together and that our love will be the stuff of myth and legends, but that…I could care less about.
I’m killing myself here! LOL!
Seriously though; I just….need you by my side.
I don’t know why, I do….I just, do.
I’m sorry this letter is so scatter brained, I can’t decide whether to laugh, cry, jump, lay down or just explode!
You are the part of me that makes me complete, Eve.
You make me want to be…..a good man….a better man.
The best, man.
I have to quit apologizing so much and just stick to telling you what I feel, with no hesitation or regrets.
You know I get embarrassed over stuff like this! LOL!
I am working up the courage to tell you all of this face to face before I give you this note.
Writing this note is kinda like a reality test drive, I guess.
Meet me by your tree in the middle of the garden that you like to sit under so much.
I have an important question to ask you that will affect my life forever, and hopefully yours.
Don’t worry, it’s nothing bad.