“Life is something to do while I’m waiting to die…”
– Treyzguy 2015
The day I was born I thought, “So what do I do now?”
I knew before I got here that my time down here on this terrestrial plane was going to be limited.
I accepted that fact, believing in my pre-mortal ignorance “How hard could it be?”
I mean, I’d been here forever.
I’d survived creation, Lucifers little rebellion, y’alls creation, what you guys call “the Flood”…
All kinds of stuff, I’ve seen; both here and there; stuff y’all haven’t done, what “HE” hasn’t done, what we’ve all done….
Yes, I include myself, I’m not placing all the blame on y’all; because I’ve been a man down here amongst y’all myself for the past 50 years, and like y’all I’ve had my share of failures and triumphs also, as hollow and trivial as it all seems, now that I look back on it.
I can’t really say that I’ve enjoyed my time while I’ve been here.
In all honesty, if I’d known what it was actually gonna be like when I got here, I’d have never come.
I’d be like “Uh, kiss my angelic ass, I ain’t goin’ down there with all that crazy shit”
I’d much rather go back to the olden days and fight Lucifer and his bunch armed with swords and ending it once and for all than coming down here and having to deal with him every fucking minute, armed only with my free will and my conscience?
That’s just crazy talk!
Ha… Free will…
Ain’t nothin’ free people.
Y’all taught me that.
I’m not gonna drag out this tirade of mine too long today because I get tired of listening to myself bitch and knowing that no one is listening and no one gives a shit anyway…
It’s pointless to bitch….
Oh, it makes me feel better I guess but that’s not the intent, is it?
Bitchings’ main purpose in life is to be heard and appreciated, ain’t it?
There is absolutely nothing you, me, we, can do about it.
Praying is talking to yourself….
Humility is embarrassing and overrated…and makes people want to beat your ass….
Charity is weakness, and the death of humility, since when a person does something nice they want to be, or like to be, acknowledged as selfless, caring and a good person…
Nothing wrong with that…
Don’t lie… It’s a human thing.
But, charity availeth no man…
Doesn’t it seem like humility is the ultimate singular oxymoron and a mind boggling, non-sensical analogy for praise?
Plus, it’s one of the few words I know of, maybe the only word, that has a meaning, a description, examples…..and it doesn’t exist…can’t exist….not down here.
How can you say you’re humble without not being humble…?
See that’s the kinda conundrum bullshit I agreed to deal with when I “volunteered” to come down here and be all…….human.
If I’d only known….
But, I know now, don’t I?
I swear to God that’s why God made suicide and murder a sin.
We’d all be killing ourselves and others as a kindness to get the hell outta here!
I know… I’m sorry…
Most of this world and the people in it have driven me to this despair.
Life is what you make it…
Kiss my ass…
My mortal dad always said “There’s only one ass that the undertaker stuffs with cotton when you die and that’s the only one you should worry about”
We never had a chance coming down here….
There’s too many of us with too much free will, too little patience, virtually no guidance and way too little culpability.
It’s a tragedy, ain’t it?
We come into this world all pink and shiny but go out of it grey and cold.
Life is something we do while we’re waiting to die…
My death is the only thing in my life I can count on that is real and will last forever.
No, I don’t wanna die yet. I’m too scared and I can’t remember what it was like there, before.
My faith died the first time God didn’t punish the boy that raped me….
I prayed for it, but…..
No justice for the scared little mortal boy that had once been a great warrior in the Battle of Heaven.
I could fight off the ranks of Lucifers host but not a 13 year old pervert….
I’m wondering, now, if we all came down here because it was bad there….
War in heaven, War here….
Life has been a waste of my time and energy.
I should have kept my mouth shut and my wings spread…
If I ever get back to heaven I will NEVER EVER volunteer for anything again! I SWEAR TO GOD AND ALL THAT’S HOLY!!
Life is what you make it.
True….but the deck was stacked against us, right from the get go.
Unfortunately, there were other people here, too.
And you can’t count on any of them.
There is such things as self interest, self preservation…. Self.
I never had a chance….
One against billions with the same idea….
But, that’s just me.
Maybe y’all can do better.
I hope so.
Maybe we’ll run into each other on the other side.
I hope so.
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