I will never be what I imagined or dreamed of….
I will never know everything.
I will never touch the moon.
I will not live forever and I still can’t accept this fact or believe it, honestly; even after my body has started to betray me by falling apart.
I have been a hypocrite, an idiot, a thief, a liar, spiteful, condescending, bigoted, biased, cruel, racist, a disappointment AND occasional colossal failure.
I have also been kind, loving, forgiving, patient, courteous, courageous, giving, a joy to be around and an occasionally successful with a task.
I’m just a regular guy, with a regular life, facing normal challenges and inopportune fiascos; doing the best I can, as I can.
I realize that I have unlimited, untapped potential that I know I will NEVER have TIME, in my life, to explore or achieve.
But, I am here, now.
A little sad today, but not too bad…
I’ve learned over the years how to keep those monsters at bay.
Just don’t feed them…
I don’t listen to my mind very much or at least I don’t take its first thoughts seriously…
It’s kinda ignorant…really.
I listen to my heart a little more in my older years but, I know it’s naive to a fault, still….after all it’s put me through.
So, I balance them out, best I can.
I’m just a simple man with regrets and future dreams in the same head & heart I started out with.
A little bruised & dented but, we’re still OK….
It’s not bad to not be perfect.
It’s the effort that counts.
My one saving grace is that I continue to effort the hell out of it.