I wrestle with God.
Jacob became Israel
I became….the natural man.
I just found out….
God’s not dead.
I suppose I knew it all along.
If I know God, which I like to think I do…
He’s always been interested in what we’re all doing down here, but not directly involved.
When he gave us free will, he threw up his hands and cried “Let ‘er rip!”
“It’s all in y’alls hands now!”
“Not my fault if you can’t get a God given gift to work!”
So, I guess I shouldn’t blame him anymore…
But, I do…
I’ve got to blame someone, right?
I can’t be blaming myself for things that I can’t control, right?
Wait….it’s MY free will…ain’t it?
It’s MY life….
If God gave me life, then he kinda relinquished his ownership, right?
So, I guess…it is my fault….kinda.
Maybe I should be more grateful for my ignorance.
I can always escape there.
I can thrive.
Ignorance is my shield against truth and acceptance.
Ignorance is denial cloaked in justification.
You know what? Now that I wrote that last line it made me think….
Ignorance and free will can’t exist at the same time, can they?
Follow me for a sec as I work thru this.
Free will is innate, right?
….as deep a part of our very soul as anything could be.
Just like right and wrong….knowing the difference…
Well hell, there really is not knowing the difference between right and wrong, per say;
We know what is right…We know what is wrong.
There is no gray area.I mean, think about it…..really think about it.
There is no gray area in right or wrong.
There is no ignorance in free will.
Here’s the math;
So, if x = right or wrong
And y = free will and ignorance is equal to “A”
Then x / y is not equal to A
You can’t argue with a mathematical proof….that’s science.
We know our decisions before we need one.
The “still small voice” that accompanies our free will and common sense is just God’s built-in subconscious disclaimers removing him from all possible liability.
I’m not gonna make a big deal out of this but, this post has been me, attempting to work thru a decision of my own.
I have decided that I have to have God in my life.
I have tried and tried and tried to forsake my belief in him….
It’s completely true that it is easier living in ignorance, just not that fulfilling or rewarding.
Like I have said before “I wish no one had ever told me about God”
I’m pretty sure I would have found him eventually.
I think I have always known, though.
He might not be the same God as others have in their hearts and minds; their perception, so to say, or the spiritual manifestation thereof;
But he is that he is….
I never quit believing….knowing, in God.
I was just ignorant to the fact that God’s not dead….
He lives in me.
He lives in us all.
Do the math….
2 thoughts on “God’s Not Dead Yet”
Yes, me, too, Trey. On my own choice yet.
Absolutely. Nietzsche discovered this truth himself… but for him, I think it might have been a few seconds too late.
God isn’t dead. And, he definitely wants to be involved in your life. He doesn’t want a hands off relationship, he wants a hands on.
The bible tells us, “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him.” Keep seeking Him, Trey. You won’t be disappointed.